The Abyss…

Forgive me dear reader, it has been bloody ages since I have felt the need to pound this keyboard with my thoughts of smut and naughtyness. I appear to be having a dry spell. The last 2 ‘pages’ of smut for the wank wednesday prompt were not really smutty but more romantic and if you are one of my (really rather wonderful) subscribers (I appreciate you all mwah!) you will not have got an email notification about those pieces (they are under stories in the right hand column).

So yeah, where was I? Writer block or something. I’m rather hoping it’s not the or something but I fear it is. I’m standing at the edge of the sexual abyss looking down into nothingness and getting no clear picture of if I should jump or teeter on the cliff edge.

In English I don’t know where to go next.

I’m having a fabulous time with the DP and Anal and Spanking and generally having some great fun sex but I’m not sure it’s enough. Liar, I know it’s not bloody enough or I wouldn’t be musing about it all. I’m finding it’s a lot easier to orgasm, longer more satisfying and even more frequent which is a blessing. I crave release like a woman stranded in the dessert thirsty for water; I’m not keen on denying myself the pleasure but I find myself asking all to frequently, is that it? What next…  no matter how much I search through porn, tumblr, other blogs etc I’m not finding that certain something that makes me go “Fuck Yes!” I’m missing the bubbling excitement of a desire for fresh territory, a niche or kink that I can make mine and it’s rather frustrating!

I want more….

….there has to be more….

….but I don’t know what ‘more’ is.

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Posted on October 2, 2011, in Blog and tagged , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 6 Comments.

  1. I feel your pain, I lose my niche.

    • Erotic Moonbeam

      I can’t see you loosing you niche as anything but fabulous!!

      and I still have mine – Happily Married Straight Sex Writer Looking For More Kinky Stuff To Get Into!

      Trouble is at my age I’ve tried most stuff… as I said to someone tonight I’ve been having sex for 26 years!!

  2. Hello, EM.
    Since I read this post, I’ve been through your stories like a whirlwind (didn’t know they were there, since I read on my phone. *headdesk*). Dayum, you write up a storm, woman! Not read Scarlet yet, though – I’m saving that one up… 😉
    Was wondering if you’d read @remittancegirl’s most recent post. She has a similar issue, but from the opposite direction, I think. Probably no help to you whatsoever, but it made a connection in my head.
    I hope you find what you seek, darling.
    XXX

  3. P.s. you write beautifully, whatever it is. The smut’s just a bonus. 😉

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