Cock….

I know… I’m not supposed to be here but as a Life blogger who thinks too much about sex my mind just won’t let me rest sometimes until I vent a little (still waiting for someone to call me out on the ‘not a sex blogger’ thing 😉 ) so I’m venting… It’s probably because today I’m without my usual joyful method of procrastination and the fact that I’ve been reading too much about it recently but I can help letting my mind wander over the subject of cock… Shame ain’t it.

A man’s penis is the appendage that often, his whole world will revolve around, physically and mentally. Often without them realising the extent of it’s influence.  I love cock… you may have noticed. Nothing is more sexy than a man in a sharp suit with a throbbing hard on, looking at me as if I’m the most beautiful woman on earth, his eyes begging me to undress him and be undressed. Makes me clench just thinking about it and that’s before any physical contact has occurred. I’m a Man-Fan, rough cold hands, eye twinkling filthiness, wonderful strong arms…  In fact, I have been called the only straight female ‘sex blogger’ because of my appreciation of maleness… (Not that given the opportunity of some guilt free, no ties pussy eating, I wouldn’t have a go because I probably would, I’m just not bi-curious enough to go seek it out, instigate it or except an invitation.) …so when I was asked to write a review about a book on blow jobs I giggled and agreed. It seems every sex blogger all over the world has been asked to review this book so most of you will know which it is, I’m still waiting to hear back from the author on a point in issue, so I’ll just point out this is not the review… but it has made me think more about manliness, cock, blow-jobs, why I enjoy giving them and I can sum up for you exactly what gets my blood pumping, why I enjoy lavishing attention on his cock so much in one word.

Power…

You want to put your cock where? In my mouth? With all my teeth? Of course I won’t use them on you darling unless you would like me too! But I could… couldn’t I… and you want my hands too, stroking your shaft and massaging your balls? How about I suck your balls gently too? All three? My pleasure….  And that is where the power comes from, I won’t, but I could and that is my choice, not yours…

Excuse me for getting a kick out of that but perhaps it’s a kink of mine, I love to suck cock, relishing loving attention and devotion on your member and I will enjoy it endlessly, the texture, the shape, the taste, Mmmm… yes I bloody will… but it’s on my terms, I get to be in Control and that’s the rule.

Is that so wrong of me?

Control is a major issue for me, I am a control freak , my personal boundaries are pretty wide but I don’t like to be pushed, nudged gently perhaps and I may push them myself; but again, that’s my choice. Too many times in my life I have not been in control of the direction I’ve been travelling, I’ve been trodden on and treated badly, not in control of my own destiny and unlike some people who seem content to let life push them about, I’m a feisty wench and I will fight back.  Being treated with respect, communication and having a choice are all such huge issues with me they affect my every waking moment.  In my relationships and my friendships I expect a bond of trust, a knowledge of boundaries and mutual understanding and I often look for this in other peoples relationships too, I like to see a balance.  So often that is exactly what I fail to see and that saddens me.

However, this control and trust are never more apparent then during a blow job… no matter how rough it might get, how deep he sinks his cock down my throat, he trusts me with his most precious, beautiful penis and I trust him not to fuck my face mindlessly like a gagging ragdoll fuck toy…

Because that is not something I can be.

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Posted on January 24, 2012, in Blog and tagged , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 8 Comments.

  1. OMG, TOTALLY agree…nothing I hate more than the term “face fucking” for exactly those reasons…guess I’ll never make a sub… 😉

    • Erotic Moonbeam

      Face fucking as a term and when ever it appears in porn turns my stomach…

      Having given the issue of being a sub a LOT of thought, I think if you have the balance & trust to hand yourself over to the care of someone who respects, loves, knows you well enough and is mature enough to handle such a huge responsibility, it is an incredible and beautiful thing… There are a few D/s relationships I’ve come across that are so strong, respectful & perfect for each of the people involved that I am truly jealous!

      I think on reflection, I like the control just a tad too much to be more than occasionally submissive, I certainly don’t consider it a game to be played as some seem to…

  2. Lovely post and I look forward to reading the book review. This made me giggle though “I trust him not to fuck my face mindlessly like a gagging ragdoll fuck toy…” we are so far apart on this one… I would have to write a slightly different ending don’t you think 😉

    Mollyxxx

  3. I wish i had a girl who loved cock as much as I love pussy!!!

  4. I’m with Molly. I’m such an oral newbie and yet I already love whatever Sir wants to do in that regard. 😀

    ~Kazi xxx

  5. I love your perspective on this. Power is indeed a pivotal part of the sexual experience. I might say similar things about why I enjoy going down on a lady or experiencing the same on myself. There is something incredibly stimulating and dangerous about letting a person near your weakest places, and deriving pleasure from it. I hope you retain your perspective. I think I have been a bit dismayed of late to watch the shift in main stream erotic/sexual content to favor exploitative and self-guided blow jobs as if the woman were a mindless toy. Perhaps a little guidance can be useful, but my woman is more than capable of controlling me without any help on my part. In that moment she reigns supreme, and that is as it should be. Men, being ever formidable and commanding, are easily humbled in that regard, and I hope that is always true. Even the descriptions of it weaken the knee just a bit. Words are also powerful 😉

    ~Foster

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